October 2010
1 post
Well, hello old friend.
Oh how quickly you devour my life.
Just today, I let you back in.
It was only this afternoon.
So daring of me, after three years of misery.
Silent protruding hips
rail legs
and spine.
September 2010
2 posts
Erik Satie-Gymnopédie No.1, accompanied by a Jim...
Fly me to the moon Let me play among the stars Let me see what spring is like On a-Jupiter and Mars
April 2010
1 post
March 2010
2 posts
Everything I do contradicts what I last did, it’s pathetic. How am I suppose to get anywhere at this rate?
Thailand
Yeah, I know its been awhile. In February I ventured to Thailand. In ten days I rode elephants, held a real white tiger, and visited too many temples. I brought along my trusty pea green Holga, and tried to soak up the culture. The food was spicy. Markets sold ants, pig heads, and alive frogs. The people were very kind but shy. Monks walked everywhere. Whole families rode on a single motorbike. As...
December 2009
1 post
You write complete trash. You’ll never think up anything yourself. Using clever words does not achieve the deep and quirky persona you are chasing. Frankly I don’t like you and I think your hair looks funny. Id ‘Unfollow’ you but id rather you read this and feel a jab.
November 2009
4 posts
I was a camera until I went blind
My past eight days were spent in Sayulita and other small villages in Mexico. I had a remarkable time. These once distant villages were being filled with tour buses, but I wasn’t in too huge of an uproar because it had improved their quality of life. Even the stray dogs and cats where being given a chance.
I recently purchased a fixed fisheye and was gifted a pea colored Holga. I brought...
October 2009
1 post
Hello out there.
Everyone annoys me. Spending so much time with Dusty is not kosher. I want to go back to the same independent individual as I used to be. It feels like the whole world is just restraining me in a herculean game of red rover. Its pretty crummy. Saturday night I’m attending starfucker. Its my fourth time seeing them, and I hope the glory never wears off.
It has been ages since I have posted...
August 2009
4 posts
July 2009
6 posts
Looking back, it makes me miss everyone in my past. When I die I want to feel it all at once. I mean, at one point in my life I want to feel everything I have ever felt, but all at the same time. I want to be filled, I want my insides to spill over, I want to cough up my colors and for anyone I have ever touched to feel my revelation. Why not when I die?
Listen
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(313): her vagina probably looks like a grenade went off in a deli
June 2009
6 posts
Just an update
Just bought a Zune charger and electric blue buds.
TONIGHT: Sneak out, bake penis cake, go to party. Get home before 6 am.
TOMORROW: Wake up at 7 am, get in car, drive to Eugene. Get home home, throw on clothes, pick up Trevor, go to Starfucker/Starparty show.
FRIDAY: SLEEP IN and pack.
SATURDAY: Wake up then get on plane to Arizona. Confess to my mother I need to go on the pill.. Come home in...
They were old, twenty years to be exact, and they were your silver spoon earrings. The small shallow bowls were cut off, only the fancy handles remained. Nearly a decade ago you could no longer wear them, and I felt sad for you. Your years of costume jewelry and youth were over. An attempt to recapture would leave you with flushed swollen ears. I had the urge to ice your lobes, find relief. But...
May 2009
8 posts
Don't wake me, I plan on sleeping in.
I wish to capture every astronomical day and black veiled sky. It appears I am not capable when I’m truely happy. Sitting on my laptop writing is sort of the last thing I feel like doing.
Every weekend is another preposterous plan with a slim chance of escape. We manage. The past few ill never fail to remember. Last Friday night has been replaying since. Its actually been quiet distracting....
Coffee, love letters from Leigh + Tea, crackers,...
My weekend was comprised of French subtitled...
April 2009
12 posts
Dear Caleb, this is not a personal letter. Friday I decided I didn’t give a fuck anymore. I stopped caring where I was going and moved mindlessly. After class I jumped in a random van with Ron and strangers. We drove for a very long time until we arrived at damp looking house. Inside was very dim with no natural light or even a lamp. It smelled of cats and abhorrent things. Once seated in a...
I was in the middle of writing a post, left the computer, scratched my eye, and now I cant see or finnish.
I spent no time on this post.
I honestly can’t see how thing could get much worse. Well, they really could I guess. When I say it all outloud it sounds its all my fault, but really in most cases i’m a victim of circumstance. I’m completely overwhelmed with today.
My sister is in the hospital and will be for awhile, I found out I have another brother, the boy I was completely infatuated with left my life, I...
Thinspiration.
Things look different from up close.
Bedridden, I faded in and out of sleep all day. My headphones endured hours upon hours of quiet simple songs. I have not put myself through this since my despondent time last spring. I remember the insignificant details, and they add up. We are less naive everyday. I question if I was better off before, in the unknown. It was safer, I didn’t hurt myself. I had a more stable foundation. This...
I am aware that everyone on earth has heard this,...
“If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am....”
– The Perks of Being a Wallflower
“I heard your heart from under the ground,
If your gone why does it sound?”
So foul and fair a day I have not seen.
Slept in till almost noon, what a wasted day. No one seems to want another adventure, so I think ill settle with a book and my zune on Council Crest. Its such nice weather, a crime to waste. Ill probably end up stupidly wandering the area, and getting lost again. I can’t help myself. Using this blog instead of my almost destroyed journal is not a favorable idea. I should stop posting when I...
No time for names!
This week was very eventful and exciting. (not really..)
On Saturday I went to Craig Owens Acoustic with Anna at the Hawthorne. We stood in the rain for what seemed like an hour and ended up with a fantastic spot in the crowd. Anna discovered she forgot her camera battery at home and almost broke down because we could have gotten incredible shots. She owns one of exspensive cameras that I am...
March 2009
10 posts
Id murder for a cupcake!
I am ashamed to say Ive wasted my last hour looking a photos of cupcakes… Here are some of my favorite:
OHMYGOD!YOGABAGABA!
And the winner…
I don't even know what rymes with is
I am proud to say I have had no bottom ramen since the New Year. It has been a very healthy year thus far. If I keep this up maybe my ass will actually decrease in size. Fat chance.
It makes me sad that I have only one follower. He doesn’t even speak English. :/ It feels like I’m talking to myself. Oh well, better than cats.
Today our drugy house cleaner came and my mother decided it...